Je passe mes soirées à regarder des épisodes de The L Word en VO sous-titré, alors du coups jme mets à penser en anglais et... ouais, c'est pas très joyeux, cette série me fait trop réfléchir, c'est affolant !
Menfin... Je ne traduis pas, désolée et si vous avez du mal à comprendre... bah dites vous que c'est pas plus mal hein !
Quand aux fautes éventuelles, si quelqu'un peut me les corriger, je dis pas non =]
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- Are you ok ?
- Well I… I feel like I’m Jenny.
- Lost in your darkness ?
- Exactly… I’m just like her, in my mind, in my dark mind and I feel good in it, I love my darkness. I’ve tried to be, you know, just different from that, I’ve tried to write happy stories, I’ve tried to talk like a child, to make every story like a fairy tale… And now, now that there is no more darkness in my stories I feel like I don’t even know.. who I am. I’m completely lost.
- …
- It’s so hard to live…
- To live what ?
- To live, just to live, you know, I think this is the most terrible thing in human earth, this is the worst gift evolution gave to us. Being an human being, thinking and living are the most horrible thing in this world.
- Why don’t you try to be happy, to be just happy for living ?
- Why should I ? I have no goal in life, I don’t believe in anything, I just don’t know why I’m living. I’m too tired of trying to be happy, nobody wants to help me in that, people are just too self-centered , they always tell me to try it by myself. Happiness isn’t a thing that you could live alone, everybody knows it but when someone ask for help they just say “hey, why won’t you try to be happy for yourself”… I don’t care about myself ! I just don’t fuckin’ care about being happy for myself, smiling at the face in the mirror is not enough !
- I… I don’t know what to say.
- I know, of course you don’t have anything to say and I’m not asking. Nobody would have words to comfort me until an “I love you”, the one which is talking about true love. Nobody could bring me happiness until I’ll find love, but I’m note searching anymore, so this love’s gonna find me. Happiness will have to kick my ass and say “I’m there for you now” and it will have to kick my ass over and over (cause I won’t believe it) till I hug and kiss it !
- And I’ll kick your ass too !
- Thank you…
Parole de Poète Disparu
Autre(s) rêve(s) :
It finds you.
You mind may be dark.
But it's yours.
And it's the only one you'll ever have.
And if you're confortable with it.
Dark or not.
You've more reason to rejoice than to complain.
You've probably loved. You've probably have been loved.
Past never returns.
But other times will come.
And no one says that the only way to find love was to search for it.
No one even says that searching is the best way. Or even a good one.
Thanks for the insight.
Aléas.
(et merci pour le lien vers "chez moi", je ne sais pas à quoi je le dois, mais ca me fait plaisir)
Re:
Et pour le lien vers chez toi, il est là simplement parce que j'aime ce que tu écris, même si j'avoue que ça fait longtemps que je ne suis plus allé te lire, ni aucun de mes autres liens :-/
wolf-rayet
Feel like = avoir envie, feel as = se sentir comme si